THIS POST IS FROM JAN 10 – WHOOPS IM GOING BACKWARDS..
A lovely day of posting & improving the site coupled with singing & munching on loads of yummy fruity goodness….
My nails are looking really great at the moment, in the past I have always despised my nails and hands, telling myself they were ugly and red swollen yukky hands…..yep that kinda self talk. What does this self-talk do for us??…Well a lot of things really….puts out an order to the universe….’Im ugly, im not worthy, treat me this way….’ ofcourse no one really wants this delivery….they put the order out but when it arrives most people are like ‘Oh this isn’t fair I don’t want this, please not me etc…’ but in reality this ‘gift’ was not by mistake it was intentional & we unkowingly placed the order….but this is a gift of growth and until we treat this order as a gift & learn from its arrival then we will be stuck treading water…struggling from drowning….on the edge of the waterfall peering over instead of overcoming the rapids with intentional conscious focus on dry land…(am i getting carried away here..)
One day I decided that I had enough of that talk!!!!!!!!!! I love myself and im proud of it god dam it!!! This realisation yes did take time to arrive at….or maybe it didn’t, maybe that day I said ‘that’s it!’ was always an option for me?…I could’ve walked that path at any time but I felt comfortable in my pity, it was home, we knew eachother, there was certainty and consistency.
Its an empowering feeling to be freeeeeeeeeee and choose to love my skin im in and I really feel this is why I attain/project the results I desire because my order is a conscious one & always from a good place…..a place I now feel comfortable to call my new home….somewhere that I can thrive & grow & not drown like I used to in a pool of fear & procrastination….